We all have heard about suicide stories. While they are heartbreaking, especially for the families affected, there are so many uncertainties that come with such a radical and devastating decision.
Another case of uncertainty deals with two teenagers from Orange County, Florida, who were identified as being involved in the killing of a Windermere police officer on March 23rd. Brandon Goode, 18, and Alexandria “Alex” Hollinghurst, 17, were considered missing and endangered when the cops identified that they had both left behind suicide notes. Additionally, the two had been linked to the fatal shooting of Windermere Police Officer Robert German early Sunday morning—March 23rd.
The police released the contents of the suicide notes days later. In the note to Hollinghurst’s mother, she wrote:
“I could write you for days, but I know nothing would actually make a difference to you.” She goes on to say, “Please understand that when people compare us, I vomit on the inside. If I had stayed another minute I would have painted the walls and stained the carpets with my blood, so you could clean it up.”
Goode, on the other hand, wrote to his parents in more apologetic terms. He wrote, “I am sorry for all the pain and misery that I have brought you both. I love you both so much, I love you with all my heart. Please don’t be sad, this is what I want now, I get to die peacefully with the woman I love, the woman of my dreams, my fiance (Yes we were engaged!).”
Although I usually try to sympathize with those who have feelings of depression that unfortunately lead to suicidal thoughts, I can’t grasp the idea of two teenagers willing to die together…and before doing so killing an innocent person. It just doesn’t add up, and it makes me wonder if this was just an easy way out for the two teens or just plain selfish. I can’t imagine what the families must be going through, as I’m sure this devastating decision side swiped them.
I think it’s imperative that parents look out for their children and be wary of how they behave—physically and emotionally. Sometimes I wonder if it has something to do with dynamic of parental guidance provided to children as they grow, or lack there of. No matter the circumstance, there is always a better way to handle depression than to resort to something so horrible, especially when feelings of worthlessness are only temporary.